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09
Nov 2006
6:01 AM CST
   

well today i came home at about ten because i have a migraine and sore throat. i saw Jordy he was on his way to go to the hospital though. things are starting to get really hard between he and i, he is spending less and less time with me and i never get to see him only once every one to two weeks. i know his home life is really rough and it is selfish of me to ask so much of him but i really miss him and want to see him. My mom screwed me over and stole $500 from me so i will not be able to move as soon as Jordy and i hoped. this really sucks i feel so angry, alone and just emotionally and physically drained. i have insomnia again which i hate so much i want to just scream i hate being alone.i am looking for a job, i live in a small rural town so there is nothing around me. but my art should be picking up soon and start selling again. i am going to make a website promoting it maybe that will help. i am listening to linkin park numb right now its another one of those songs i talked about that express what i feel. i cut again last night and just lay their in my blood crying. when is enough, enough? everyone else seems to be getting their break but when everyone else gets their break things seem to get harder for me. i just want to be happy. a few days ago i watched two funreals two days in a row and i can't help be jelous of the sob who died they probably died happy with their families around them, when i almost died my family was no were around, thats why when i get the hell out of this town i want to start a family with jordy make up for the shity families he and i have. but that won't be at least until we are twenty
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  • Username: bettyboxedin
  • Gender / Age: Female, 34
  • Location: Canada
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    About Me: i am a self employed artist/ photographer. ummm i live in a small farm town and love it. i am very happy with my life right now i have just gone through 6 years in hell and just met the man of my dreams and since i met him everything has just gone up hill. I have been through a lot and have learned a lot through those experiances. even thought they were hard to go through i got positvie results such as self emprovment and life lessons i will never forget. I volunteer at a homeless shelter and love it! I love horses they are my favorite animal and i am starting volunteer work at a horse farm where they do therepy for kids with dissabilites.

    Interests: my intresting inculde horses, journaling, painting, really long walks and my passion is music and expressing my self through my art (music,painting,photography,journaling ect,)and volunteering at a homeless shelter, and skate boarding and watching my boyfriend compete in skate compatitions

    Favorite Music: my favorite music is punk my favorite punk bads are Rise against and i like Nirvana, and a varietyof other types of music. I also like screamo and classic rock. my fav screamo bands are korn,and Insane clown possy

    Favorite Movies: My favorite movies are the equilibrium, kill bill vol. 1 ( vol.2 sucks) and i like the untouchables, Schindlers List, VIOLENCE!!!!! chickflicks ya they suck

    Favorite Television: UFC, Family Guy, Trailer Park Boys, Kenny v.s Spenny, and Csi.

    Favorite Books: Memoires of a Geisha, the hiding place, number the stars, hatchet, brians winter, the outsiders, and a complicated kindness