auxilary25's Journal

Oct 2007
7:03 PM EDT

Another sleepless night...yay!
Tomorrow is a VERY long day because I wake up at 4 AM to go to the gym & finish school at 10:30 pm. Tomorrow is very big for me because it is te revolutionary change of my lifestyle. According to the book Skinny Bitches I need to stop putting "junk" into my body and start getting back on track. My goal is to lose about 30 lbs...I'm 166 and I want to go down to 120 which isn't hard because tomorrow I'm starting to light weights again which makes me lose really fast :)
But it's a big day because I'm starting my "addiction program" which I admit I have an addiction to bad foods. I've never been able to go one week without eating ice-cream at least 1 day of the week or allowing myself a "splurge meal." Yeah those are good...but they usally are what causes me to end up breaking down and wishing to go back to my normal junk food consuming ways...so I've proposed myself a challege like those that ppl attending AA have...no eating junk food for 30 days. I know for a fact I'm not strong enough before that to even take a bite...I just can't...if I do I compromise my life. People don't know the dangers of eating junk food...cancers, colon damage, stomach damage...etc...these things don't sound too scary until u find out u have it..but I want to make sure that I never get there. I'm studying hard now...taking 18 credits exhausting myself with school work so that I can live a hppy life. I don't want for one day a doctor to sit my down and tell me that my life is going to hell because I decided to eat a freaking burger or chicken nuggets instead of lean unprocessed foods or fruits & veggies... I want my children to have their mom forever...and I want to live happy with my hubby :)

Well, I should get to bed now...hopefully this freaking tormenting headache will go away and I can get rest..

Nitey Nite

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Username: auxilary25

Gender / Age: Female, 39

Location: USA - California

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About Me: I'm 21 years old and I'm a university student majoring in accounting. I'm in a relationship right now where I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. I truly have no doubt in my heart that this is the man that I want to marry because he completes me in every way. My only problem in this relationship has always been my bfs past. My mind is always going back to his past and comparing the love he felt for them to the one he feels for him. My insecurity has led me to believe that I'm not his 1st choice that he's with me because his "love" left him behind...it was 5 years ago but still the thoughts are there..hopefully through journaling I can get this feeling out of my heart so that our relationship can get stronger.

Interests: I love reading whenever I actually have the time. One of my fav authors is Jodi Picoult. I'm a big Harry Potter fan but unfortunately I haven't gotten around to finishing the last book eventhough I started a year ago.. I love my nintendo Wii and I can't wait for more games to come out. I love to work out 4 times a week because it helps me release my stress and feel good about myself.

Favorite Music: Ashlee Simpson, My Chemical Romance, Jessica Simpson, Daughtry, All American Rejects, Simple Plan, Plan White Ts...and the list goes on

Favorite Movies: Sweet Home Alabama, How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days, Grease, Crazy Beautiful, Beaches, What Dreams May Come, Dirty Dancing, Man on Fire, and Trison and Isolde.

Favorite Television: Brothers and Sisters, Desperate Housewives, Greys Anatomy, One Tree Hill, and FRIENDS!! Everybody Loves Raymond, I Love Lucy, King of Queens, My Wife and Kids.

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