Smilez's Journal

 
    
22
Feb 2007
2:41 AM EST
   

I didnt do anything but talk to another guy.. just talk. Was it 2 minutes, maybe three.. but it was just talk.

Did I like the embrace? Sure why not.. its been so long since I've had a real good hug.

Did it mean anything to me? I cant say it did.

All I did was mention 1 guy that scared me that I could become attractive to, and it remains my down fall and the initical down fall to mine and his relationship.

I set him free last night, he set me free. No more knowing that he'll call me and we will still cling on the phone with each other. We hung up this time.

What is the griving period in letting ones heart heal? I dont know, I guess I'll find out in due time.

He just wants to be himself now.. I had no idea I was trying to change him, I was always fussing at him, and I was always talking about other guys to him.

I use to think him and I were so compatiable so perfect together.

After these last few talks I can see he's not.

What was he to me...? My best friend.

Who does he think about now? Her.. and what could be or will be between them? Their so much alike, and him and I arent.

All I did was love this man unconditional. Over looking his faults, lies, and secrets.

I had hoped for so much more with him. But sometimes when you love someone as much as you do... you have to set him free... Like he sang the other night to me on the phone... IM FREE ... yeah baby you are!

I just wonder if and when you do go to prision, which one of us will you be thinking about?

I guess I'll never know.

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  • Username: Smilez
  • Gender / Age: Female, 57
  • Location: USA - Ohio
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    About Me: Im a single tall attractive mother of three girls.

    Interests: right now my interest would be TIME.. I feel like Im always on the rush! My job is a full time and then theres the job of being a full time mom,house keeper and etc...

    Favorite Music: Im into the lite rock radio stations. Im drawn to this type of music because my work plays it all day long. I also listen to K-Love when Im in the car. This radio station keeps my spirits up, and keeps me on the right direction for life.

    Favorite Movies: I like alot of action pack movies... But my all time favorite movie is The Titanic.

    Favorite Television: Two words can sum this up.... LIFETIME.... I love Reba, Still Standing, and lets not forget the old reruns of the Golden Girls.

    Favorite Books: Who has time to read...? I guess you could say the bible... but I like reading non fictional books about spiritual warfare. Some romance... but right now with my current status I cant read those types of books anymore.