Sixx's Journal

Oct 2006
2:36 PM CST

Dear M, We got married and had one of the most amazing relationships I could have ever imagined. Soul mates. What happened? You dont talk to me, you are always mad at me.... I know your family puts constant pressure on you,,,,, And I know you say you want things to be like they were... that would be great. But lets face it - that will never happen. Too much has happened. You have failed me in too many ways. I tried everything I could to make sure you had it easy, and that was my mistake. You became spoiled. And now that I am not sitting here being the perfect wife you cant take it. Yes, I stand up for myself more. I look out for me! I dont worry or care about too many others anymore. No one was making my life easy and I dont see that happening. Yes in some ways you do allow me to be the person I want to be. But I catch hell for it. All the friggin text messages and crap like that. YOur mom always worries about the most fucked up things and I am always covering your ass with her when she ask if you are ok.... lol.... I always say yes. SHe ask if we are ok.... lol... I always say yes. We are about the farthest from OK that 2 people can be. Honestly, I dont think I will be here much longer. I cant take it. I need to move on and be who I am supposed to be. All the drama is too much... I dont need it - I dont want it. But J & B THRIVE on it. - They arent the only problems.... there are too many. In case u forgot we have 3 kids. I take care of them. One is never here cause he has NO respect for you. One you have basically relinqushed control to your dad and the other is too young, but seems to be forming opinions. I have never asked much from you. I ask that you stand up for me when your parents attack my character. You say you have. Unfortunatley, you have never done it when I was there... The car.... Are you kidding me? GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS AND SPEAK UP!!!!! You say you sold your soul to them to help us out... I guess thats one of the major differences between us... I sell my soul to NO one for NO reason. I dont know how you sleep so well at night. NIght? Ha thats funny. All you do is sleep... all day, all night, all weekend... all the time. I am a single parent, with kids..... and a husband. Do you really think this is fixable? I cant deal with your family and you are sooo busy kissing their ass that you cant take time to see anything past them. Ive tried and tried to talk to you. YOu say you listen. Whatever.... Im tired of talking. If it werent for the little we have I would just pack up and disappear somewhere one night. But I cant. I owe too much to her.

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Gender / Age: Female, 51

Location: USA - Alabama