Ray's Journal

Nov 2007
4:38 AM A

kill me now...
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my heart is burning.
my mind is truning.

tear drops form in my eyes.

your love for me start to die.

you ripe me up

and break me down.

just kill me now...

just leave me here on the ground...

i stare out my open window
catching the rain in my hands.
every drop of tear i get.
i shead them with regret.

i should have never loved.
i should have walked away.
i should have missed the day.
but instead i close my eyes and cry.

�

you left me here to feel the pain.

why did you want me to�die of pain?

just leave me here.

here in the�snow of a winter's day.

�

kill me now with your gentle words.

ripe me apart.

tare out my heart.

kill me now with your beauty and grace.

how much will i cry? when will i die?
if iblock the path, and walk away.
will my shadow find me again?
will my bleak, black, world stay?

in the darkest place on earth,
light and peace give birth.
in the ugliest time in history
beauty and grace solve your mystery.

�

some how, somewhere.

i know you'll hear me

some day sometime.

i know you'll see.

�

i won't be there always.

we�need to go�our own ways.

i am what i am.

open your eyes to see.

i am who i am.

let me go just let me be.

�

kill me now with your kindness

strike me down

drop me to the ground

kill me now with your pride and love.

�

my heart is burning

my mind is turning.....

�

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Nov 2007
5:20 AM A

My life...

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my life is full of grief and pain

instead of sunshine i get rain

wishing for laughter, i get a sigh

wishing for love you say good-bye

�

my past was of sadness

the present is loveless

tomorrow is of loneliness

�

my life is a incomplete puzzle

with millions of lost pieces

all i seek is someones love and care

without a thought i take the dare

�

where is my life? living with such fright

i leave it here now out of sight

i dare myself

to find myself

but where am i now?

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i close the once open door

into the shadow seeing no more

into my heart is the grief and pain

i can feel the sadness in my vains

�

my past was of sadness

the present is loveless

tomorrow is of loneliness

�

i hear your voice in the night

i close my eyes and hold on tight

�

with each breath i take

my whole world shakes

with every tear i shead

i come closer to the edge

�

i see a smile on that face

you reach out but not to embrace

�

as the years go by

with not a smile but a sigh

as my fears come in.

i feel for all those�sins

�

my past was of sadness

the present is loveless

tomorrow is of loneliness

�

as i get older by the week

and weaker by the day

no one can save my life

no one can truly say

�

my life is dull and gray

my world won't stay this way

i move along with this lie

i leave it here just to die...

�

im won't regret what i've done

but i never said it was fun

for me to feel this way

what can i say to pass each day?

�

my past was of sadness

the present is loveless

tomorrow is of loneliness...

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Nov 2007
9:22 AM A

Far Apart...
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we live in the same world but why do i feel like we're so far apart?
people care for you but not me.
fake smiles,fake friends, fake people. where is the truth?
i say what i think must be said. but no one hears me. im always the odd one out.
im always the stranger.
fake hugs, fake laughter, fake love.

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Nov 2007
8:19 AM A

song

Lies....

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you were heartless enough to tell

i was stupid enough to listen

i turn away and close the door

what you've done cannot be forgiven

�

you said those words

those words of love

you swore to god

to god above

�

the day we met you held me tight

the night you left i fell apart

i�have much to say

but where shall i start?

�

my world is changing

my life is dead

all the lies you told

are stuck in my head

�

you said those words

those words of love

you swore to god

to god above

�

what if someday i learn to love again?

how can i know my lover isn't pretend?

look what you have done to my heart.

i should have hated you from the start.

�

i turn away just to cry.

i feel the pain and want to die.

i move about in a cloud of sorrow,

waiting to�feel the�sadness of tomorrow.

�

you said those words

those words of love

you swore to god

to god above

�

untill my heart is healed once more,

the way to my love is not an open door.

you can't just knock and walk right in.

you tought me so much where shall i begin....

�

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About Me: i belong to a band ''The Broken Arrows'' i love ''Suicide Art'' it's my favoutite thing to draw. and yes im emo.