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09
May 2011
11:48 AM
   

Confused emotions!

Soon I will be able to ttc again. I hope that it takes and sticks this time. You know, having this ordeal last 10 weeks was tough. But what has been suprisingly hard is now that it's over, the feelings that I keep having. I felt guilty because I was relieved that this long-drawn-out ordeal was finally over with. What kind of mother am I that I am relieved that the pregnancy is over? Then I felt guilty the first time someone asked me about the pregnancy and I answered without feeling that sharp pain in my chest. How can I not still feel pain over the loss of my child? What is wrong with me? And now to feel guilty for wanting to try again. For being excited about it. For giving myself the chance to love another child. This I will say, I will NEVER forget the child I lost. NEVER!!!
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    About Me: I am 32 years old. Wife of a loving husband who has overcome many personal obstacles and has grown into such a great person. Mother of a beautiful, loving, energetic and bright little boy, my prince and love of my life. Mourner of a second child that was not to be. Hopeful mother of a third child.

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    Favorite Music: Salsa & bachata. I can listen to it all day long.

    Favorite Movies: Anything with Denzel Washington or Mel Gibson. I also like watching movies that have Vin Diesel or The Rock but only because they are in it, not because I actually love the movie.

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