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23
Dec 2006
11:40 AM PST
   

Welcome to round 2. So, since the second I found out I was pregnant again, I've been doing my very best to pretend that this is not the same fucking crap all over again. However, with each little thing this asshole does, it becomes painfully obvious that I have just stepped right in it again. All I need now is for him to get mad and go out drinking and we have Paddy in a nut shell. I have a bit of a pattern forming. First everything is great, so we get pregnant. Then I get beat up. Then he swears off alcohal. (That's the part we're at right now). And then we get in a fight and he goes out and gets shit-faced. The part after that isn't bad, I have a baby and absorb my life with being a mom and don't even notice that I live with a prick. Then once the baby is a year old, my mind clears a bit and I realize that this is dumb. So, the question is: Do I leave now? Or do I just do the whole cycle? Or (here's my new idea) do i push this farther and get married? (which guarantees that I get something out of it this time) Since I am in no position to go anywhere right now, and I already tried the second option, that leaves me with getting married. Dum dum dum-dum. Yes, it is. Anyways, the douche is back, later.
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  • Gender / Age: Female, 44
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