Miss1's Journal

 
    
12
Sep 2006
6:40 AM EDT
   

That's a good question. That of which I have no answer. Things are actually beginning to look up for our family. Of course, we're still strapped financially but we are in the process of moving to a new home. it's a cute little townhome in a pretty good area. Josh and I have been talking more about our emotions and problems with each other and believe it or not, it's actually helping us get thru. C has been having better days since we last talked. I am trying to deal with her a little different. I wish I knew where I could attend some parenting classes. Maybe once we get situated in our new place I'll enlist somewhere. I went to report yesterday and it breaks me emotionally everytime. I hate going there and seeing my mom all fuck'd up on pills but that's her way and I wouldn't know her any other way. I love them so very much. I just wish she wouldn't give up on life so early. God, sometimes don't you wish you knew how to take your own advice? CRAZY!! I didn't go to work today because I have a lot of packing and sorting to do. Yet, here I am typing away with you. I needed to cleanse my thoughts real fast. So, I've been online trying to find which digital cable provider is the best deal. We just found out we can't use our satellite dish at our new place so I guess we're going digital. I'm thinking of going with insight. Seems like the best deal. well, Josh is at work, "C" is at school and I am here alone in my thoughts. I may be back to write more later. Until then.......So, it's a little later and I'm back. So now, to get at the question at hand... What am I afraid of and why.... I'm afraid to go through life like this. NUMB. FROZEN. MEAN. LIFELESS. Everything that I am or am not reflects on my little girl and I am so afraid she'll grow up with no esteem or confidence like me. I am afraid that this will never get any better. Whatever "this" is. Life, love, money, all of it. I am so terrified that this is it. Please if someone has any advice for me, I could most definitely use it. And it and you would be very cherished and respected. Thank you.
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  • Username: Miss1
  • Gender / Age: Female, 45
  • Location: USA - Kentucky
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    About Me: Hello world!!!! I am 26 yrs old. I am 5"7 and weigh around 140 with dark hair and green eyes. I love music and I love to read. I am a mother of a 6 year old babygirl.I am now learning to love life again. Or, should I say for the very first time and it is a task!!! But one well worth it. Thanks for listening.

    Interests: some of my interests...let's see... I love baseball and I love to read. I am very passionate about music.

    Favorite Music: Since music is one of my passions I enjoy a little of all music but I prefer hip hop or hardcore music. I truly like when they mix those together. Like Korn, Rage...things like that. Also love '80's music!

    Favorite Movies: Goodfellas, Scarface and Menace II Society

    Favorite Television: Grey's Anatomy and My Name IS Earl...also Flavor of love

    Favorite Books: Some of my favorite books are true-crime books

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