I try to be happy. I honestly do. Then I think about what happened, and different things that have happened throughout my life and then I just can't. I used to be optimistic. Or at least I tried to be. Now my mind can only see the negative. I don't understand. I know that people tell me that its depression, but I wish it would just all go away. I try to be a happy person, but it's hard to be something you're not.