*blushes* Forgive me for i have sinned i called Eddy* again it was� only once though. Its not� a suprise he hasn't rang back.
Anyways the rest of the past 4 days have been so-so. I dissed some bitches on myspace.� A life without mischief does't make u feel alive. There is something about Drama that just turns me on. I love it when people are fighting. I'm one of those people who fuel misunderstandings
Suprisingly i'm getting alot better without having an Eddy fix. I'm still in the early ages of recovery i believe very soon i'll be able to fly without my wigs.
He is a really nice guy...i thought about my descion of the no contact thingy and i changed my mind. I plan on keeping our relationship strictly platonic(I can't do that now..but i'll grow strong enough soon). I need this man in my life, he taught me alot and we once loved each other with fierce hot passion that could burn a room up. Not to mention he was my first love....and the last.
I never ever want a man to� put in the position where Eddy has put me .Nver will i let any man have thsi much control and power over my emotions. �I want to have the control and power. I'm going to be the Bo$$ bitch....Never again will i ever put a man before me myself and I(lol i'm crying) I guess Eddy really has hurt me more than i've let on. It's not only his fault its also mine.
Enough about him.....i need to go do something to cheer me up :)
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