im writting on another journal now...theres no more use of you....
I'll see you later
never writing on you again
i would want to be a quiet person now.....i'd only show who i am to my closet friends....and Vanessa and Vaneza is out of that catagory....... If vanessa havn't told jeremy to change then i wouldn't be hurt this much.....i wouldn't havee to suffer like this.....i would have recodnise him.....he will still be the Brat i knew...... for Vaneza....i know that she's annoyed of me....i know that she hates me.....i know that she just wants to say "go away freak!" just like everyone i knew....
A Quiet person.....all i ever wanted to be....all i wished to be.....not emo....just quiet...
Later
I have a bad feeling about my social studies exam....i think that i might get a C or something like that....its just they asked some stupid and hard questions that us immigrats don't really know like who is the cheif of the education department....or those things.... its just so annoying but in the end i finished every question and slept until the exam was over! But then it wasn't a really good sleep coz i was in a sitting position and it was uncomfortable.....:(
later
well...today was almost perfect aside from the usual things...you know homework, friends....but then it had gone bad all because i was standing in the corridor, waiting for my friends in the opposite class.... well.. theres a dude in my school, who i used to treat as a bro and he used to treat me like a sis....we used to annoy each other, but then one day he got pissed at me annoying him and stoped talking to me, that was like about more than 2 months ago...then today... i'll just discride it to you, the "G" is me and the "E" extras , the "D" is door to my friends classroom and the "J" is the dude that got pissed at me.
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As you can see... there were many people there, it was a busy corridor, but i was there even though it wasn't busy....i mean the whole corridor was almost full from all the students waiting and rushing.... i guess he was rushing as well...but then there were many others there who were pushing him, i moved a bit so that i could give him space and then he shouts at me?! talk about rude....i mean that totally pissed me off...and runed my day.......
well...i recieved a good news today... well....he asked Vj if she could plan for his party, and well...of course vj said yes...and well....yea.....but still the bad news remains...his still ganna go.... and not only that but then i've found out that others don't want to be my friend anymore...What Is Wrong With Me? I mean im just being who I am!! Why is it that no one can understand me!? No one can like...not be annoyed of me...I just feel so torn apart by thinking that he/she has been my bestest friend but then all of a sudden he/she doesn't want to talk to you anymore....it just hurts but not that much.... This Time I Am For Real.....No MOre Talkative,,,,NO More Activities....NO more helping....No More close friends.....No MOre...no more...... IM being torchured here....mentally....its just so painful to hear or see that your all alone now....i guess i have to get used to it.....get used to having no one to trust.....no one to talk to....no one to be there..... i guess that you don't really need friends after all.....you just need you......to stand up by your own....to learn by yourself....no more helps....no more "teamwork"...most of all....no more friends.....No more little happy annoying girl.....just the silent, loner one.....the new me after today onwards.....i guess to think about it....i might just had puppy love for the past 4 years.....without realizing it......i guess im just saying goodbye to the old jeremy....i guess.....that feeling is my main problem......i feel too much....now i have to feel no more than a smile.....no more talking....no more sharing.....no more love....no more ...no more......
right now...i don;t know who i am ....im just searching for me
mondays are always very boring for me, not only that the exams are comming but then theres a ceremony comming and guess what this is ganna bea bummer, im in it! man i hate being the winner or the important person or higher up my rep coz honestly i want to just lay low, its not that i want to be the centre of the world, i'd rather be like unknown, than the popular. But no....because i have a bro that was a captain in the bb team. i have to be known....and yea its kinda annoying....
Just want to be unknown like a shadow.....
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