Dear Journal;;
Im wondering if jesse is the one for mee i meani know he is but i wonder if he doeslkeme in that way??? i always wonder that but idk if he does... i like him alot really alot like im willing to give him 100 to him bc he needs it right nowww like seriously like wtf he wont accept m money like i knoe he needs it i know that he does so likejus tak itt. But w.e/ my dad is in jail for woman abuse like wow he finally wentt to jail for that shit it was about time FUUUCCCKKK,,,,, SO YEAH anyways im thinking of having sex with jesse but heres the question do i really wanna do that or wat??? i guess well see that until then. I started skool on monday YAY!!!!!!!!! Not really tho it sucked anyways yeahh....
Im here feeling all alone lke usual...
Im bored im tired im going thru some shit i shouldnt even be going thru... my mom && i are in bog situations. i like this guy named jesse but i really like this guy named luis. He l ikes me && i like him alot... but the thing is hed oesnt know && idk either so either way it doesnt work but anyways. i think im ready for sex but not too sure hes had sex i didnt� so yeah .... ill see what happens
Dear Journal;
Im not at skool today i decided to skip. I dont have the socks for my skirt anyways and my skool pants i cant seem to find them && my dress shoes r killing me soooo fuking much. Anyways im by the libary by keel n KLawrence. My friend luca is gunna come n visit me YAY VISITORS LOL. Im bored srry i guess i can say this is a ok day lol well ima go get ready to meet up with my friend luca�
I can�say i had a fair b-day. My b-day was on friday sept 19th 2008. I spent all day with my bestest friend named Luis. I skipped skool all day that day. I went to sherdan mall and i bought myself a sweater at athletes world. I went to another mall by JKane n Finch and its called yorkgate but we didnt do much. After that we went to Yorkdale witch was alot of fun. My point here is this is my best friend and i have deep feelings for him. We've been good friends for the longest time since grd 6 and now were both in grd 11 can you believe it. Hes helped me through so much but i dont feel that he likes me in that same way. People tell me it looks like he likes me but im guessing its just the way he is. I dont know if he likes me and i dont wanna ask him b.c wen i tried to tell him b4 that i liked him and i did tell him thingts got a bit occward and i felt soo bad. I dont know how to find out if he likes me n i dun wanna ask him that cuz im afraid to ask him. But i see the guy everyday and i feel that the more we hang out the more closer i get to him and the more i like him. I dont know what to do. I dont wanna move on cuz usually when i do that i end up licking some guy that has no intrest in me at all and i end up getting rejection. I feel so low at this point. I haate myself i feel so ugly and i feel so down. i only had one boyfriend and it was in grd 7 abd it ws one of those elementry skool thing so it wasnt even really anything. i really like this guy and this is not something ive felt for a guy b4:S. This is different, this is more that like..... i cant say its love or maybe it is, ive never been in love so how should i know, im only 16 years old i cdont even know what i like either so w.e i dunno i think ima bee soo ugly in da future and ima die alone im so upset stressed, disapointed, distressed ughhh im soo lost and confused............
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