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09
Jul 2008
11:46 PM GMT
   

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hello.. im so bored.. i just spent half an hour searching for "feeling lost" on google. ive always been a dreamer, always thinking that 6 months down the line when id go back to school or college i wouldnt make the same mistakes.. but i always do. ive always seen a future, i always thought id meet the right girl and find the career i knew was right for me. but just now im kinda realising that maybe lifes not so black and white. maybe its not so perfect. maybe both choices could be right, or wrong, or maybe we are not all destined to be happy.. i know people who died sad and lonely, made mistakes and all that. i know people whove lived good lives, have been in love and been happy. i always thought id end up happy for whatever reason.. i guess because when its in the future you look at it with hope, that one way or another youl be so much smarter, braver, the life and youl be more confident. but i feel so far away from that right now.. im flipping coins to try and pick a career.. it doesnt really matter that much to me.. i almost wish someone would stop me in the sttreet and tell me... this is what your meant to do. end of story! i want something to excite me.. im drifting right now and thats not good. I can ramble on when i get into it! yawn big wide world
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