Im not sure what to say, school feels different, home feels different too. Nothing feels the same, and everyone has seemed to change. It feels like i've drifted from my closest friends, and I have a feeling my new close friends are going to let me down too! I feel I've become shy once again, and I dunno. I'm scared for it all, every little thing. Im sorry, for all of me.
Trust seems close to impossible to find anymore, just like a real friend. You can search for years to find one person who you can actually put everything into, but in the end they are just like everyone else. You kinda loose hope after a while, fighting for everything, and loosing it all. Fighting for something or someone that will never actually be yours in the end, or when it feels like no one really cares.. because they dont? If people really cared about anything besides themselves, they'd keep their words, they'd show that they cared. Good people are very rare, and to hold on the them seems impossible. No one deserves to be trusted, sometimes you can't even trust yourself. Why does my disbelief is trust hurt me, when it should be saving me from the pain of everyone else. I pray to god that I find someone, or if its already someone I know, that I can trust again. I really need that right now, someone who actually feels like a true, real friend.. I just really really need that.