smb's Journal

Had a good week! Jett did well and enjoyed school with Marci H and JJ! IT is so nice that they know him and I know them and anyway it was all good! Except the first day they dropped him off at the Rec center and I was told they would drop him off in the back and soI missed him being dropped off in the front! I waited for him for 1 hour and then started to freak out. He walked into the rec center daycare all by himself! He said he wasn't even scared and he was excited he gets to ride a big bus with no seatbelts!

CN was at HotSprings fire all week but he might get to come to Hills ALive this weekend! I am VERY excited and so happy and blessed that we got a room Sat night at Holiday inn Plaza! that is the one right across from the concerts! I am so excited to see Jeremy Camp but all the performers will be excellent and moving! I am looking foward to an awesome spiritual time with my mom and CN and with GOD! "God is good, and God is good all the time!" The boys will stay with my Dad in Sundance and Jay and san will take them too if need be!

My Master's program is kicking my butt! I don't know how I can do this program during the school year! It is so time consuming and I am getting very negative and hate all the BullShit writing! That's all it is, is BS!

OH and I feel like a big fat cow! CN still doesn't want to compliment me or tell me I am fine the way I am, I just want to be loved for who I am and for what I look like! I do wish I could get rid of some belly fat and my thick legs! I try not eating much but then I get headaches and feel weak! I need food for energy and I am trying my hardest to make better choices and not eat crap but I still have my down falls! (chocolate and coffee drinks!)

Whitney got picked up by her mom last night because she got sick! Poor thing! Rhinannon stayed and talked to me for about 1.5 hours about her troubles with Jod,,,, I guess he had been drinking a lot and things aren't good between them! He had sopposedly been cheating on her. THen RB had the gall to tell me she heard a rumor that Donnie was cheating on me with the same gal! I didn't need to hear that! BUT, I just thought to myself, OH WELL, what can I do! Not like I can ask him or anything! He was so messed up, look what he did to himself, HE wasn't in his right mind! AGH!

OH no, water is still on! I have just been swamped with taking care of this house, yard and boys all by myself! I need more help! I feel like I am getting wore down and I just have to keep going!!!! Gotta get that water and get packed for Hills ALIve and get to bed!

YEAHHHH! Jeremy CAMP rocks! I'm so gonna be a happy camper!!!

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!