scarlett's Journal

went out in the boat today for a bit. inhaled gallons of sea water trying to wake board but it was still a good time.i finally got my license which is amazing. it's a kind of freedom that i have never experienced before, even when living away from home.

on an unrelated note....3 guys have recently expressed having deep feelings for me, one of whom told me that he was in love with me. i guess i should be happy but seriously, this is getting ridiculous. im not that attractive or desirable. in any case...that one guy is just confused. he certainly doesn't love me. this is all just insane. can something make sense? please? im spending so much more time trying to let them down easy, mend broken egos and reading soppy notes and messages than i am trying to find someone i am going to date. maybe i dont really want to date. i dont know...no one ever said that life and love were easy. it's not too much to hope for i suppose...it's like heads or tails...you never know what the outcome will be...but your gut tells you something and, even though you have no control, you bet on it and hope that fate breathes some life into your belief.