Ok so i've done some soul searching and what I have found is that it is just not me that i need to be happy with but everything in my life....yes i miss the people that have passed....yes i admit that i miss my ex....not much but the fun we used to have....but my new guy is better at making me laugh....that is good.....everything i've been through the last 2 years has rocked my world....i've changed people tell me not for the best but in fact for the worse....BUT i feel for the better...yes i'm a nice person BUT i still have the cappability to be a BITCH....yes it is true......But as easy as it is to fall into the BITCH act it's alot harder to like myself in that role...i'm a very pasiant person, loving person, caring person.....but I can still be a BITCH whenever the mood strikes....I just don't like to be :)