Prissy

OhmyGod! I'm in a "two-person" relationship.

I have to say it's scarying the shit out of me.

Steve seems so into me. And I'm not used to that.

He's already slipped into couple-mode and I'm torn between love and logic.

Logically we've only known each other two weeks and there really isn't any need to be exclusive. I haven't gone out or seen other people since I met him, and it's damn hard to think I need to keep this up for a while, especially with him being gone on and off for a while.

It's like I'm going back to when I waited for John for a year.

I think going out and hanging with different people definitely made me feel empowered and in control. Plus I didn't have to answer to anyone but myself. Now I'm responsible for someone else's heart and feelings. That's scary as hell.

I almost want him to just drop me like a dead duck. The bad part is that I was saying all this shit to him all evening yesterday about how I'd cope and then how I'd not be able to handle it if I lost him. I think it was a bit much and I ended up apologizing.

He was his perfect nice self. Said it was a two-person relationship and I shouldn't expect to be in control of everything. He's pretty awesome for a 21-yr-old.

K enough of this. Back to work.