oconfessionario's Journal

Jan 2007
1:02 PM EDT

Today is just not going the way I wanted it too. I was successful in finding a pair, no, two pair of sneakers and got some workout pants and mousse at Target with Nyssa but for some reason, this day just doesn't feel fulfilling. Now I am trying to get my room cleaned up and organized before I have to babysit tonight and classes start tomorrow. I was talking to Nyssa about the things I don't really like about living with a room-mate. And I really don't like to even think about those things, because I know how lucky I am to live where I do, and that Kelly is so nice, even though I do have a few pet peeves, which I'm sure she does too. And also, I think last night eating that burrito, it was too much food, and then the crackers, I'm just wondering what possesses me to eat so much in 1 setting. And I know what it is--duh, boredom! Of course I didn't think of that before. I should have just read my book and went to bed, but no I ate pbj crackers instead. I did also find a coat too, which I'm really excited about! So really, I'm all set to get started working out now. The coat is on it's way, I've got workout pants and shoes, and I can start walking again! Also when I was talking to Nyssa I just realized how much I want to help her adopt a healthier attitude towards things and you just can't do that for someone, they have to come to things on their own. I just don't want to discourage her by my own progress, whether good or bad. And I don't want to get sucked back into the mindset of letting my environment and who I'm with control me, because it doesn't. I think that's why I'm happiest and healthiest when I'm spending a lot of time on my own, and I'm constantly working or sticking to a schedule. I am glad that I am babysitting for the Harts again tonight. And I am going to make good (for the second time) on not eating everything in sight, and esp. staying away from sugars which I know are the worst things I could eat right now. Today my little temptations card is really not going to get filled up so far. I've eaten so much... 2 eggs, 2 pckts oatmeal at bfast 1/2 burrito, salsa, 1/2 c butter beans 1 c. rice chex, 2 c. 2% organic milk 1 english muffin, 2 tbs peanut butter Woah. I do feel encouraged to be a good role model for Nyssa though. I want to start walking right away, tomorrow morning. God, please help me to make good on these goals. I'm sorry I was ignoring your guidance when I was eating earlier today. I let the beast get to me again today. But I know that I will win because I could feel it today, that you are going to help me. I'm going to finish cleaning up, start a load of laundry, and then get all the garbage out of my car. Tomorrow, I'm going to get up at 7, walk around the neighborhoods from 7:30 to 8:30 or so, or go to the gym. Then I'll have time to shower from 9 until 10 and eat breakfast, and then make it to class at 1050. I have Bio and Lab tomorrow. I'm kind of nervous too, about talking to someone and figuring out what the hell I'm going to do about graduating. It's scary to think that I have to decide all this, well before May gets here. Yikes! But I really trust that God will give me the guidance, and he's going to help me find out what I'm doing this summer. I keep going back and forth with the bookselling thing, and right now it's back. Alright, time to get productive.

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Gender / Age: Female, 39

Location: USA - North Carolina

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About Me: I'm a senior in college, majoring in Spanish. I'd like to someday spend time in another country teaching English or something like that. I'm not really ready to graduate. I want to get a masters/teaching license first in TEFL. I started out doing Elem. Edu. but I don't think that's for me, I do want to teach though. For now the biggest thing, is figuring out where to go next!

Interests: Reading, writing, babysitting, walking, kickboxing, skiing

Favorite Movies: Amelie, Brokedown Palace, Shawshank Redemption, Sean Connery 007 movies, anything with Grace Kelly, lots of old movies on AMC, Edward Scissorhands, Matilda, Requiem for a Dream, 28 Days Later

Favorite Television: CSI Las Vegas, Nip/Tuck, That 70's Show, Unsolved Mysteries, Family Matters, Full House and the old TGIF show lineup (man I miss that program!) and of course, What Not To Wear

Favorite Books: God-Shaped Hole, The Great Divorce, The Screwtape Letters, Something Wicked This Way Comes, White Oleander, Patron Saint of Liars, This Much I Know Is True, The Arms of God

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