maureen's Journal

Jan 2007
11:14 AM EDT

So where do I begin? The present seems as good of a place as any, due to the fact speaking about the past does no good and it actually a mirror of the present.I agreed with Holly to give her 30 days to give me what I need to be happy. I am not to tell her what I need. She says she knows because I have been telling her what to think, say and how to act.I feel that I have done that because she does not give me what I need, but am willing to give it a try her way. I expect her to continue to be the same distant abusive woman she has been for years. I hope for something totally different. Although hope has not been to good to me.I need to her to put me first in all things. I want her to come home from work and put me first. I need her to put her mom after me. I need her to realize I am just as ill as her mom. I need to to set and stick to a schedule as far us what time is ours. We have talked about this for years and she always backs down. I need her to become a person of integrity. I need to know I can trust her. I need to her show me I am the woman she wants to be with. I need her to learn to keep her mouth shut when all she has to say are hurtful and negative things. I dont like that I have to keep my wants and needs to myself. I dont see how that can be helpful to anyone. Perhap it helps her by not putting any expectations on her, therefor...no excpectations= no failures. Although if she does not do what it takes to make me happy it is a failure. She says she knows what I need,and can and will give it to me, then if she does not she has failed. If I dont keep my mouth shut then I fail.

Add comment

maureen's Profile

Username: maureen

Gender / Age: Female, 61

Location: USA - Ohio

MAUREEN's Friends:

jodigirl25