madhousewife's Journal

It's a gloomy day, but atleast the birds seem happy, there is a lot of singing going on. I'm really thankful after all that bad weather we didn't lose power.

I have been going through my little tapes from my video camera. My hubby bought me a dvd recorder so we can save them to dvds. I want to do that with my pictures too. My family was always griping about my video taping, but I think they are going to enjoy a peek into the past.

I have been feeling down again, not quite sure why. I go in streaks. Some days I can't help but wonder, is this all there is. I was 17 when I got married. I only dated my husband, never lived alone, always in such a hurry to grow up, or atleast prove how grown I was. I went from my parents roof to my husbands, never me time. The only reason I wouldn't go back and change anything is my kids. I would have spent more time cultivating girlfriend relationships,because I really don't have any. I am friends with people at work, but not lunch ,camping, kids growing together, ect type of friends.

I don't like being "down". I am truly a blessed person. I have a husband who loves me, 3 wonderful kids, and 9 beautiful grandkids. It isn't something I try to do, or even want. I am making an attempt to work on it, and writing does help.