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Sep 2006
9:47 AM EDT

I talked to C on my lunch break and it put me in a worse mood. She was telling me how her and R had their pics made and he paid for them(which is about the first thing he has done during her pregnancy and she is at 8 months). Sometimes I want to smack her for being so stupid. I know she really wanted the pics but it does not make R a father. I could scream at her for putting herself in this situation as well as a life that is helpless. Sometimes I feel like we are in the same boat when it comes to relationship. 1 min. everything is great then the next it blows up in your face. I understand that all couples have problems but ours get taken tho the extreme. Its not about resolving the problem, its about "what is the nasty thing I can say to Lisa." A petty argument every once in a while is one thing but its another when B tries any way he can to degrade me. Ex. "I can't even stand the sound of your voice." And he loves to threaten me w/ moving out. "Well you know what B, if living with your mother in a single wide 2 bedroom trailer, out in the middle of nowhere, on a dirt road that is full of pot holes is better than living at our house well then get out!" This crap w/ him is starting to effect me at work I have noticed. He even uses something as simple as me going to WM w/ my parents against me saying how I am spoiled and they might kiss my a** but he won't when all I did was go to WM w/ my parents and bought a few items. WTF!!! Anyway...The next day after an episode w/ him I am ill, tired, look like hell, want everyone to leave me alone and I cannot seem to focus on my work. And all I want to do after work is to crawl in the bed and sleep.

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Gender / Age: Female, 43

Location: USA