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Oct 2006
9:43 AM PST

Ok, so now I actually have time to type something. Worst day ever on Saturday ...me and who I now refer to as "asshole" are no longer dating, nor are we friends. The games were getting ridiculous. But I was looking forward to that night, because Jason, possibly Lauren, and Kerri were going to come with me to Chilliwack. Jason and his best friend Lauren didn't come out ...I guess Jason had a long day too. But Kerri was still coming with me. So im on my way to Chilliwack, Tanya calls and fills me in on what happened Friday. Well I was texting with Jason throughout the hockey game, and Asshole got jealous and started texting someone. Never told me, and hid who he was talking to. He was texting my best friend Tanya. Meanwhile im actually talking hockey with Jason. Tanya informs me that he was doing nothing but flirting with her, and "offerring his services" as he put it. She declined cuz we're best friends. Now im even more mad and poor Jason listened to me vent about my day via phone on my way home from work. So then I texted him what had recently happened. We get to the bar, and asshole texted Tanya and what it came down to was that asshole was only half joking about the night before and tells her that im mad at him. He thinks that it was just for that ...no it was really a couple months of keeping it to myself and finally losing it. Anyways I guess I wound up texting Jason (While drunk mind you) and told him he was cute and that we should get together the following day. Then I wound up going outside and calling him and talking to him for a bit. So he came to my house the next day, and im extremely hungover. We watched some movies and hung out ...all while cuddling. My hangover headache went away but there was tension in my neck, so another headache was coming on. He gave me a neck massage ...nothing was helping so he and I agreed I'd get some sleep and he'd leave. He wound up giving me a kiss on the head when he left. Weird/akward thing ...we work together. And im not really sure if I like him ...I cannot trust guys as far as I can throw them. And I have a thing with younger guys ...guys are already immature, I don't know if I even want to attempt that. I did it once and that was a mistake. And I don't want to ruin our work friendship. We are the two youngest ones there ...we make fun of everyone/confide to each other cause we're both around the same age. I don't know what to do ...my head is spinning, my stomach has butterflies, and my heart is cold as a rock. P.S. On another note, I haven't talked to Asshole in almost 5 days. It's easier than quitting smoking.

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