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13
Sep 2006
9:04 AM PST
   

Why is it when you try to do something good, it turns around and bites you in the ass? And why do people tell you they want to start settling down (in the "almost breaking up" speech) and then when you are out for lunch they tell you that they are going to buy a house with their roommate. Who by the way currently hates me right now. Is it worth it for me to sink my energy into a possible relationship if his idea of settling down is buying a house with his roommate? Neither of them even have the money for a down payment!!! I stopped taking my medication for my cyst cause my moods just went crazy and it was driving him away. All I get in return tho is his work cells voicemail. I can barely think about that today though ...Exactly one year ago I was in a car accident. And exactly one year ago is when my last relationship starting heading south. Maybe I'll just be the crazy fucking cat lady when im older. Even though right now I don't have a cat. Maybe im just not cut out for these useless things. So many questions that I can't answer, nor can anyone. Right now that is ...but I want to know now. Now I don't know if he is coming on Sunday, and Krissy needs to know today. And everyone from work is looking forward to meeting him. If im ever having a shitty day I could call him and he could put a smile on my face for the rest of the day. Plus Bob wants to see who this person is ...has to see if he is good enough for me. So flirtatious but very protective co-worker. And I don't know what I'd do without him ...we started off as friends, then really good friends, then dating. I would have been lost out here if it weren't for Jay. But I can't figure out what to do ...he can't even fucking pick up the phone lately. Sometimes I think he is sleeping with the slut he got a job for. Maybe I should just move out of the province ...I can run away from it all, im good at that. I just need a sign to push me in the direction I need to go.
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