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14
Nov 2007
11:18 AM EST
   

My feelings are constantly changing.. sometimes i think its going to be great. and then something comes up and i know my mind has changed, and then ill feel guilty about it. but then the day after, it happens all over again. i am so SICK and tired of writing about the same things, the same problems. its always guys, or school, or family. and family is pissing me off the most right now. like, im sorry i am stressed out about school. i was thinking about exams yesterday night, and honestly like i started to cry. because its soo hard.. grade ten is so hard! i know it will only get harder, and there will only be more work. but i dont feel like im ready for all of this!! im not good under pressure but at the same time i know i wont completely fail at everything. but i just want to give up 90 percent of the time. but i know i have to do the work and i know i have to pass.. and i know im smart enough for it. but i just CANT focus on anything other than stuff outside of school. school feels like the last thing on my mind, the last thnig i care about! which isnt exactly true.. but honestly i just want to pass everything.
im so tired. im exhausted. i want to curl up in a ball, and never talk to anyone again.. or at least for a little bit!! i just need some time to myself, yet i keep making all these plans every weekend.. like this weekend i haev a party on friday and then on saturday im hanging out with jeff, and maybe i should just have some time for myself! some relax time or whatever.. but there ISNT time for that because there is too much other stuff going on.

i want a break.
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