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29
Sep 2007
1:48 PM EST
   

You know what I never realized? Well thats a lie, I have realized it many times, but it hasn't clicked until right this minute. Why am I living, like Im just going to die eventually, and start all over again. I'll have a new family, a new outlook on life, it will be different again! Or, maybe everyone gets one shot and this is it. Maybe reincarnation doesnt exist. Maybe nothing happens for a reason and its up to you to live as long as you can.. what if that is true? Do i honestly just want to waste my life with all the wrong ideas in my head and the wrong people in my life? Sometimes, when I feel sad, I think of the past.. as in past people I've shared something with. I'm scared because i don't know what I am doing to anyone around me. I'm being careless and reckless and I dont mind who gets hurt. i dont want to be like that, but right now im thinking about myself and i honestly dont care. i dont care if i have feelings for more than one person, i dont care if old feelings show up again once in a while., i dont care if i fall out of love as easily as i fell IN love. im gonna get hurt, im gonna fight, im gonna try my best and im gonna fail miserably. either way, im gonna live day after day because thats what needs to be done.
I love my family
-- they are the only ones who i know for a fact will stick by me NO MATTER WHAT and i love them for it. when i say family, that includes my best friend PD(l) no one else compares anymore. No one.
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