jazzsoulp's Journal

Feb 2007
3:24 PM EST

I always tell myself I'm not going to write in the journal today and I end up doing so..dats because I love words..They are ours and no one can take it from us. I wrote 2things today...I wrote my first song and it's entitled Goodbye...Or something of that nature...It's my not my very first song but it's the very first one I am sure of...As u can tell from my name, it's a soulful song. Sounds like a Meshell Ndegeocello meets Norah Jones....hehehe..Cool!!!...Ok, So I had my fone turned off all day because of my usual stalkers. This one guy actually called my friend turned room mate whom is the love of his life but they stopped talking because she doesn't fancy him, more like he disgusts her,..Ohhhh it's a long twisted story...Did I mention that me n him had a fling sorta thing sometime ago then he decided to fall in love with her,..my friend who was once the object of his loathing and whom he used to call names like b**** and h**. Well he decided to hide it from me and she asked me if it would be a problem and I said no she should rock that boat...But then he still kept it from me...So I confronted him and he denied it by denying her and when he was in the tightest corner that had him at a loss of oxygen, he had no choice but to confess to save the rest of what our friendship was and also the rest of his dignity, but killed it by saying..."I understand if you dont want to be my friend anymore"...THEN and THERE...I hung up the phone...hahahahaha....it was hilarious.....*catching my breath*. Yah...i ended the friendship but he lied...he dint understand that I didn't want to be his friend anymore because he kept/keeps stalking me...sad!!! What really hurt me the most is that he told my friend "Well,....I have my ex- girl(Some random chik) and my very good friend (ME) fighting with me because of you, so you need to make a decision"...WOW....More like ARROGANT SON OF A very nice woman (I know/like his mum,..so i'll leave her out of this)...well...he doesn't know that I know that he said all that and that is my basis for being distant becaus I dont think a FRIEND would be so willing to dump you like dat because of hormones..He made me an option which hurt me to my nerves mehn...it killed my spirit for days...But then I had a long summer vacation in Europe so I left all that behind in the states...But I had to come back someday...I did and he is always there...hunting me...I make him sound real bad innit..he's alright,..just when he's away from me. But then he's now like a stalker...I know he is still using me to try to get close to my friend which makes all his invitations to stuff feel wrong..So i've rejected every last offer...Painful, but hey...I have to do what I have to....Spoke to my mum twice..Called her at 4:00am then she woke me up at past 7....hehehe..I lover that woman. O yeah...DK actually called me tonight...dint speak to him tho...thank God...He left a message on my phone @ 3:00am his time...He was definately drunk. I hate when he calls me drunk. Dint we just have an argument about this last weekend...But deep inside me, I think It's cute because it means he's thinking about me when he's having fun...makes me feel special but I still dont like him getting drunk...Sounds hypocritical innit...O well...Sue me...Good Night Journal

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Gender / Age: Female, 39

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About Me: I was born with an old soul. I am as real as real gets. I avoid wahala (trouble)!

Interests: Soccer, Good Music, Making Music, Writing Poetry n Music, Travelling, Cooking.

Favorite Music: Soul, Afrobeat, Jazz, R n B, Old school hip hop.

Favorite Movies: Err...Hotel Rwanda, Tsotsi, Bed Knobs n Broom Sticks, 7 Lucky kids, Smoking Aces, RENT!!!

Favorite Television: Grey's Anatomy, King of Queens

Favorite Books: Organic Chemistry Text

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