ilovegaarakun's Journal

Nov 2007
9:55 AM EDT

"He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away." - Raymond Hull

my thanksgiving was horrible because of the same reason last night was. i'm not even going into thanksgiving, but its pretty much the same fucking shit as last night except i was actually there in the car to witness it. alright, so last night i was supposed to go to a hooka bar with Byron; just the two of us. he texts me in 7th period and asks if it was okay if Shan goes too and i said it was cool. so we were in the car on the way to the bar and they almost immediately started a series of the most immature arguments. it started off as just a quarrel over something trivial, but then led to practically a screaming match. at least he was yelling. i didn't know what to do, like i couldn't get a word in edgewise during the whole thing and not 10 minutes away from my house, Byron demanded that he be let out of the car and slammed the door on the way out like some kind of child. Shan and I decided to go anyway, even though the only thing we did while we were there was talk about how immature and stupid and exhausting the whole thing was. After the two of us were done at the bar, she took me back home and i already knew Byron was going to be there. we talked and i cried (just like thanksgiving) and he left, miserable, to go to Shan's house. i don't know what happened after that, for i haven't talked to him yet since then. i swear, the next time i ever want to do something with either of them, i'll do it with one at a time. never again will i hang out with both of them at the same time. its so miserable and it always ends up like it did last night. ever since Shan broke it off with him, he's really starting to loose his mind over EVERYTHING. it sucks to be around him at all when he's like that because i know its not entirely his fault because of his shitty childhood. he actually didn't have one. and everytime i get caught in the fucking middle of one of these situations, i feel so bad because i know it's not his fault that he's like that! i wish i could do somehting for him, but i know i could never even get him to tell me everything that happened to him. he's so afraid that if he tells me anything that i'll use it against him and throw it back in his face or something. which is understandable. oh well. i gotta go.

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Username: ilovegaarakun

Gender / Age: Female, 34

Location: USA - Virginia

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About Me: i'm an anime freak and i love music. i have to be listening to music at all times. ^_^

Interests: anime, yaoi, yuri, fanfiction, music, and the like.

Favorite Music: 30 seconds to mars,a perfect circle, alexisonfire, alkaline trio, atreyu, avenged sevenfold, the blood brothers, blue october, boy hits car, bullet for my valentine, caroline's spine, coheed and cambria, coldplay, the counting crows, daft punk, death cab for cutie, deftones, depeche mode, e-rotic, eiffel 65, enigma, the faint, fall out boy, fear before the march of flames, fintroll, flogging molly, frank sinatra, from autumn to ashes, funkervogt, gackt, godsmack, heaven shall burn, incubus, job for a cowboy, linkin park, ludwig van beethoven, madonna, malice mizer, marilyn manson, the matches, metallica, muse, my chemical romance, nine inch nails, pretty girls make graves, rammstein, senses fail, she wants revenge, shinedown, soft cell, soul asylum, staind, stephen lynch, sting, streetlight manifesto, thursday, tool, tsunami bomb, the used.

Favorite Movies: fight club, advent children, anything with jack nicholson in it, 300.

Favorite Television: no tv for me!

Favorite Books: anything by anne rice, great expectations (charles dickens), night (elie wiesel), a separate peace (john knowles), sybil (flora rheta schreiber) manga: absolute boyfriend, gravitation, naruto, loveless, gakuen heaven.

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