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27
Dec 2012
5:25 AM PST
   

pamagat

��Masaya ako. Masaya ako na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Hindi inaasahan pero alam mo yung pakiramdam na sa wakas ngayon ko masasabi na tunay akong masaya. Yung hindi pakitang tao. Yung hindi lang para di na ako magpaliwanag pa. Yung totoong masaya. Hindi ko man maibigay ang lahat ng naisin mo, pero gagawin ko ang lahat para maibigay ang lahat ng mga pangangailangan mo. Maliban lang sa isa. Pasensya ka na. Hindi ko kasi talaga kaya yun eh. Tsaka hindi puwede. Magiging malaking gulo lang yun at hindi mo deserve ang ganung buhay. Pinapangako ko saiyo, magiging masaya tayong dalwa. Kahit na tayo lang. Hindi kita iiwan. Kahit na anong mangyare. Mamahalin kita ng lubos. Sana pag dating ng araw, hindi mo ako kasuklaman sa mga pagkukulang ko. Sa mga hindi ko nagawa. Wala akong hinangad sa buhay kung hindi ang kabutihan mo. Anak, ikaw ang pinaga magandang nangyre sa buhay ko. Wala na akong hihilingin pa. Hindi ko na kailangan ng kahit na sino pang lalake. Ikaw lang. Alam ko na kung bakit, ang mga nanay, masyadong mahigpit, mapag alaga at mapag mahal dahil alam mo anak, nung naghihinala palang ako na ako'y nag dadalang tao, hindi ako mapakali. Napapapraaning ako,at ang hirap. Naisip ko kasi, baka may nakain na ako na hindi mo gusto. Or baka na apektuhan ka na ng sobrang stress na pinag daraanan ni mama. Tapos , ang hirap sisipin na baka magkskit ka pag naisilang kita. Napakhirap talaga. Pero hindi �ko iyon sinusimbat, gusto ko lang mainitindan mo kung bakit ang mga nanay eh ganito. Pasensy ka na kung wala si papa. Hindi natin siya puwede makasama. Hindi mo pa din siya puwede makilala sa ngayon. Hindi ko kasi alam kung matatanggap ka niya eh. Kung kaya ka niyang pinindigan. Nagkasala kasi si mama nak, at hindi ko puwede ipaglaban si papa dahil pag mamay-ari siya ng iba. Pag laki mo maiintindihan mo din ako. At pag laki mo, yung tipong kaya mo na ipag tanggol ang sarili mo, ipapakilala kita sa papa mo. Sa ngayon, ayoko na masaktan ka. Hindi ko matatanggap yun. Hindi ko kasi talaga alam kung tanggap ka niya.�

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Mahal na mahal kita. Wala na akong mahihiling pa sa buhay. :D�

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Mama

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29
Jan 2011
6:11 AM PST
   

iLoveYou

Dear Jakoy,

I thought my feelings for you were all dumped in oblivion, but I was so wrong. It's like a vintage bomb dug out of nowhere and was accidentaly detonated,what a huge blast! I never knew it coming. I thought I have gotten over it long before we ever talked again, but yeah sad to say it's always there, just waiting for the right time to come alive, again!

I've decided to take a break from the internet for some reasons, including you. I want to get away with you and forget about my feelings over again. Its hard to love a friend, it's even harder when he lives so far away, and you know what's the hardest? He likes/loves someone else. How am I suppose to fight for it when in the very first place I know that I already lost the battle. Unrequited love has been hurting me for the past years. It sucks! :'(

I'm missing you a lot. I always think about you, day and night, every second ad every minute of the day. As days pass by I know that my feelings keep on growing, stronger and deeper. I can't hold it back anymore. So I hope this drastic measure would work and not be such a futile attempt at the end.

I love you Jakoy, with all my heart, body and soul. I wish we live closer so that I could just show you upfront how much I Love you. I guess though, I just have to accept that some things are not meant, just like "us". Nevertheless, I'll love you and I know it for sure that you'll always be a part of me.


*hugs and kisses*

be safe and may God be always with you.

Don't forget to smile always


~Big J ♥




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02
Sep 2010
8:22 PM EET
   

Oh My Mafia love

Dear Jakoy,

I don't want to be devious because it'll just bore you to death. hehehe I want to let you know that I've been missing you since the last time we talked. It's weird because� I've never missed you this much. I'm thinking about you for the past few days 24/7 and i know this isn't right :( Now I came up with a conclusion that I might be falling for you or yeah I'm inlove with you, FOR REAL.� Not the Mafia obsessed lover thingy that we often joke about.� I never knew it coming. I've nver thought that the jests that we share would turn into a much more deeper feeling on my part. I don't understand this tbh. I just woke up one day and poof! yeah! I have just realized this recently :( I'm telling you this not because I want you to love me back but because I want you to know that someone loves you no matter what. I'm not expecting something in return. Just let me love you! I know this might put an awkward spot in our friendship but I have to let you know because my heart is just about to explode :/ I can't hold it back anymore.

I love you and you'll always have a space in my heart Jakoy.


your obsessed lover for real

~Big j ♥

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18
Apr 2010
7:54 PM EET
   

ef.u.cee.kay! no :(

Summer,although has been not that much of� a fun,� it's kind of making me feel chill and worry-free though . I feel like I should enjoy it more than I usually do at ordinary times.When I say ordinary, it's when I've not-so boring moments at home, either just surfing the net, watching tv or I'm fast asleep. Well, it has been all good, yet far from being great when I get to remember my THESIS. It's been so long since I have a thought about it.I haven't been worrying much, not until effing� now! :(
IT really scares me. I have wasted a year,and I don't want to waste another one. Argh! I'm so damn hopless.My future is doomed. I'm gonna be stuck in here, spending so much time to beg for the signatures I need, yet I'm not gonna get them soon enough .If this predicament� lasts until� forever (Which Is kind of� possible) then it's also a way for me to say that, I AM EFFING DEAD!!! I'll be forever be such a bummed person, without anything other than frustrations and broken dreams,looking at my friends to reach the top and be happy for them. And me? or there's no me at all. I'll be like a living dead by then. helplessly Starving for success , jeopardize myself with negative thoughts and just pathetically die!

(In a nutshell, I need to have the thesis signed by some people, pass it! then have my clearance signed by the DEAN of our department--- I need the clearance to start� processing� my credentials(TOR,Diploma,etc etc) which I badly need to apply for a job. Yeah! I NEED. If I fail at the first then I fail at everything, hence domino effect! wtf


ending: Me-a-fucking-loser!


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15
Apr 2010
9:26 PM EET
   

today

:) It's always great to start something with a sincere smile. Whenever you're sad and low you can still give a way a smile from the deepest portion of your heart. Yeah I believe so,because i can do that. I smile when i feel like smiling so when I feel otherwise, I just don't. Just saying. hehe. ;p

I thought this day will be just an ordinary day for me. I was wrong though! My friend came by and we've talked about a� lot of things :) We haven't had enough time but anyway Im glad she came. I miss her so much and the rest of my friends. I want to see them but they have respective jobs� so there isn't I can do much about it. Everytime they came by my� home, I want to stop the time. I want them to spend time with me a little longer. I love them and I realize that my love for them keeps on growing as I, myself grow old. They're so awesome! oh more than awesome! I could hardly describe them. Words aren't enough tbh.

Thank you God for giving me such great friends! I promise to keep them always and forever. ♥


~jam♥

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14
Apr 2010
10:33 PM EET
   

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27
Mar 2009
7:23 PM EET
   

♥♥♥♥FINALLY! ♥♥♥♥

�I am now a graduate of a degree in tertiary education. I am not an honor student, i am proud though. Going to school is never that easy. It takes a lot of everything in the world to finish all up in due time. although I, along with my blockmates (just 5 of us) went through an adverse plight before the graduation day,but we were able to make it and march along the graduation aisle. We will be forever grateful to evryone who have helped us all the way (They know who they are), of course how am i suppose to forget GOD?... woah.. Thank God ! �

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