dawn's Journal

Sep 2006
1:53 PM CST

ok so it is becoming increasingly obviuos that my llife is not getting any better on its own, so the questo is now what do i do about. Acting like a rebelious teenager and behaving like i have completely lost my ,ind is obviously not making things better in fact all that is doing is confusing the issue. I really wish i knoew what to do and how to handle the whole i am with u but i love someone else and while i am at hell y not screw whoever i can just for good measure. I understand that i want m own life and i am tired offeeling trapped and tied down and i want some independence and i don't want my identity to be the ones i get from other people but damn i don't think this is the way to go about handling things either. To top it off the more vocal i get about the shit with adam(my boyfriend) in trying to explain ay thing to him the more we fight and argue which in turn makes me want to stay with him even less. So then what is the solution? Well that leaves me in the same place i have been for months..everyone else keeps telling me to just grow some balls and get thehell out but it isn't that easy i have a son and bills and an entire life that has to be considered. Can i really just walk out on my whole life and never look back? Of course not and what about colin and his relationship with his dad? How will it all efect him? I really don't want to loose adam completely i want us to be able to talk and be friends and work together to raise our child, but i just don't think we can do it as a single family unit, i don't think us being together in a relationshipand in the same house is good for our child. please does anyone anywhere have the answers? I am getting desperate here, i'm confused and at my wits end

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Gender / Age: Female, 48

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