First off today started out with me getting up around seven o'clock in the morning. �Then my boyfriend had called me and told me he had to go with his brother to harrisburg to fix something on his mom's property that she owns and the tennet wanted fixed.� Then my mom took me to an interview for a fourty hour job and then she brought me home.��I hung out here with the dog for a little bit and then my boyfriend calls and says that his brother dropped him off at home and went a different way so I wasn't getting picked up. �I got pissed off and told him that I was walking into town so I could see him and then my mom would pick me up.� We went to KFC to eat because I had been hungry and then we went back to his house. �We were sitting there waiting for time to go and pick up the kids. �He went and picked up the kids while I sat there and waited for them. �They get back and the boy doesn't even notice that I was there and that made me upset I felt like he don't even care for me anymore. Since I moved out to my mom's house the kids don't even recognize me when I am there. �Like they know who I�am but they don't talk to me much I don't think they want to get close to me because they think that I am abandoning them just like their mother did.� I�tell them every time that I talk to them that the only reason I am out here living is because I am trying to save money and get my own place so I can move them in or just get money so when he gets a place I can move in. �Also I�got my permit since I have been out here and I might be getting a full time job also and that would be better for everyone.�
I told my boyfriend today that I am going to be real nervous with the kids in the car for the first couple of times I have them in when I�do get my license or even when they are riding out to see my family on my permit.� I�am just scared but my boyfriend said everything will be okay eventually it will just take time with them in the car. Its kind of wierd doing something with him new its not right I�feel. �But everybody has to learn something new.� Hopefully soon my mom takes me out to drive because yea I have only had my permit a couple of days its not going to help if I�don't get behind the wheel and try.� Practice makes perfect as they always say.�
Well tonight is finally becoming a wrap for me since I�have to work in the morning.��I am doing one load of laundry so I atleast have a work uniform for tomorrow. �I always wait till the damn last minute.� I hate when I do that but it seems to be always for me ever since I was able to start doing things on my own.� I don't know I�am going to tell my managers tomorrow that i have been looking for a full time job and if they fire me over it then oh well I am going to get them back so bad that is not the thing to do.��I�can collect unemployment real quick.� I will use 30 hours if I can just to piss them off since that is what they used to give me most of the time.�
Oh my I am so bored I wish that I lived in town still I would just be leaving my boyfriends house to go home and get ready for work and I wouldn't have to get up early and go into work because of riding a bike.��
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