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Feb 2007
7:18 PM MDT

the love i have for him just won't go away. with every step that i take and every move that i make i proceed with caution cause i feel i pursue in the wrong direction. pain is love ... that's what they told me and all of my suffering has definitely proved thee you make me feel so brand new like this is a different you someone to get used to the time we shared is so special and so real i can't let go of what we have and the way that i feel yes i know my situation but love doesn't just fade so my feelings for you simply won't go away hearing your voice brightens my day and the little things you say take my breath away we do things all backwards but it worked out this way and if i could go back and change things, i wouldn't, i want them to stay stay in your arms on those nights that we slept hold you close to my heart all the nights that we wept laughing and talking and all the great sex fighting and making up, our routine was the best i know i did a lot of this but it was my heart that you bared and spending time breaking those walls showed me that you cared now it's my turn and although i'm not standing still i'm still waiting for you with patience and determination cause no one can have what we do as i lay here thinking about the way you say my name all the priceless moments that we shared and that we made the smile that crosses your face and all the things that took place i can't help but wonder if you feel the same way am i making a mistake in trusting you with my heart cause at one point in time you caused a lot of pain, and left me distraught there i never want to return i want to stay where it's safe but after all isn't it true that true love is deep pain kelvin is the love of my life at the moment but i can't leave angelo in the past. kelvin is making things hard for me so i am beginning to regress back on what i had. yes it was dyfunctional but it worked. for us. no i don't wanna do that for the rest of my life but i don 't want to do this either.

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About Me: Most Beautiful & Meaningful saying EVER "As we grow up, we learn that even the ONE person that wasn't supposed to let you down probably WiLL. You WiLL have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your bedt friend, and lose friends you thought you would always have. You'll blame a new love for things that an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose somebody you couldn't live without. So take too MANY pictures, laugh TOO much and love like you've NEVER been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll NEVER get back..." As a young adult I have more than found myself, I have accepted me! Being inadequate is balanced by my passion for music and creativity. Music releases me. It causes me to soar, to know that I can achieve if I believe. That's why I keep dreaming because I am there and it's all in reach... I just have to extend my hand and open the door. I know that I am not perfect but in my eyes I am as close as I will get, and besides I LOVE my imperfections it's what make me unique. However, there are still things that I need to learn ... one being to LiVE BY FAiTH NOT BY SiGHT. I lose sight and direction sometimes because everyone does but I can own up to and accept my mistakes with an open mind and willingly make a change for the better. I am more than dedicated to my feelings, emotions, and heart but if there is something that will help me progress in life, strengthen my spirit, and become a better person... I'm more than accepting of the idea. I know I will succeed and I won't stop until I do. The people closest to me are a compliment to my life and I thank God for them. Each and every one of them are truly a blessing. No one can ever stop me or bring me down and if you do, trust, it is only momentarily.

Interests: As a young adult I have more than found myself, I have accepted me! Being inadequate is balanced by my passion for music and creativity. Music releases me. It causes me to soar, to know that I can achieve if I believe. That's why I keep dreaming because I am there and it's all in reach... I just have to extend my hand and open the door. I know that I am not perfect but in my eyes I am as close as I will get, and besides I LOVE my imperfections it's what make me unique. However, there are still things that I need to learn ... one being to LiVE BY FAiTH NOT BY SiGHT. I lose sight and direction sometimes because everyone does but I can own up to and accept my mistakes with an open mind and willingly make a change for the better. I am more than dedicated to my feelings, emotions, and heart but if there is something that will help me progress in life, strengthen my spirit, and become a better person... I'm more than accepting of the idea. I know I will succeed and I won't stop until I do. The people closest to me are a compliment to my life and I thank God for them. Each and every one of them are truly a blessing. No one can ever stop me or bring me down and if you do, trust, it is only momentarily.