TheRedGryphon's Journal

 
    
02
Nov 2006
2:37 PM EDT
   

Today is my frist entry and I have to say that I am glad that I have somothing to write on. The last two weeks have been increasingly hard on me. My Boyfriend of 3 yrs broke up with me because he said that it was getting too expensive. I couldn't believe that someone that I had dated that long had turned into the exact thing I didn't want in my life. I know that our relationship wasn't fair I told him that I would try my best in order to put forth effort. He didn't believe me and he didn't believe me when I said that I was willing to sacrifice later on for him. I was going to move away from everything I know for him and yet that meant nothing. I know you might think that this is a little deep for a first journal entry but I figure honestly I don't have anything to say good rite now. I am usually a bright shiny person(a little morbid here and there but still managable) If you continue reading my entries you might find out that. or you could find out all I do is bitch...damn im sorry then. I have my EX EX back in my life being the wonderful guy he is and his fiance is hating me and I am not doing anything. All I want is for my EX to come back and its stupid because he treated me like shit. I feel like one of those girls that stay in a relationship because I can't get another guy, but I can. Not meaning to be vain but im not ugly and I am nice so why am I so scared? simple because I hate being alone. I love having something inspire(love) me. My lover becomes my Muse and without my Muse its like I can't work or feel good about my doings. "its like trying to cut a tree with a herring..."(shakespeare in love) I wish that I simply could just find something to motivate me again. love TheRedGryphon
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  • Username: TheRedGryphon
  • Gender / Age: Female, 35
  • Location: USA - Arizona
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    About Me: I am an intelligent person although I am emotional and that usually gets in the way. I just go out of a long relationship which I thought that I was loved in. I guessed wrong, because we are no longer dating. I have two jobs that Im working in order to get a car and in order to go to UofA as soon as possible. I want to get my massage therapy certification so I can make good money when I try to major for Psychology and minor in Law. I am a fake red head cuz I decided that I was not the personality of a blonde. Im very much a pisces and so i need someone who will keep my head out of the clouds.

    Interests: I love playing pool, blowing shit up, reading, writing, having deep conversations, fast cars, being myself, grunge music,feeling truely inspired or in lowmans terms in love, I love the ocean, I love rain.I love long baths.

    Favorite Music: I love grunge music! but also contemporary NIN,Smashing pumpkins,Alice in chains,Nirvana,Tool,A Perfect Circle,The Cranberries,Staind,Nickelback,Puddle of Mudd,AFI,Alanis Morrissette,the Muse, others to come

    Favorite Movies: City of Angels, Fight Club, V for Vendetta, Ever After, Anna and the King,Rocky Horror Picture Show,Anything Monty Python, 16 candles, more to come

    Favorite Television: I dont watch television...I don't think anything that decreases your brain waves lower then when you are sleeping is healthy...read a damn book!

    Favorite Books: Yay! Beekeepers Apprentice, Monsterous regiment of Women, The Moor, Justice Hall, O' Jerusalem, 1984, Anything Sherlock Holmes, Body of Evidence, Body farm, The red Deamon, The star of India, The angel of the Opera, The Jungle, The Count of Monte Cristo, I know why the caged Bird sings, To kill a Mockingbird, Civilization and its discontents, others to come....