Just another sad story...

I dont know what to do. It feels like apart of me is missing. Ever since my best guy friend moved away, I dont now what to do. I used to love the outdoors... now I curse it almost every waking moment because there are just to many memories....� Passing him in the halls feels like Hell. I never have done well with silence, any form of silence. It feels like we have this agreement� "You dont talk to me, and I dont talk to you"� kinda thing.�He looks at me like he wants to say something, or like he's waiting for someting. But truthfully I dont want to know, because Im scared as to whatever it could be he wants to say. The most I get out of him is a nod of the head! According to him this his is way of saying hi... Bullshit!� We used to be able to tell each other anything! At one point in time he even admitted that I was the only person he could really trust and talk to. I dont get why Im getting the silent treatment. Maybe Im not good enough for him anymore....� The quiet scares me cause it screams the truth

To make matters worse my own family doesn't trust me. I dont know what I did wrong, they say I am a disapointment to them....almost every day. I've been losing my mind, and living a lie. Everything they have ever told me I know they dont mean, because if they did, they would actually say it to my face...