Simply Sally Silence In Death

Oct 2006
4:56 PM EDT

Tears Fall my tears fall down like rain. the sky opened up the clouds, turned a dark black. and the rain poured down. onto me soaking me. but here I sit alone in the night. soaking wet but I don't care. because no one can tell, that I'm crying. they won't think to ask what's wrong. my heart feels like it's pierced, so deeply that nothing can cure it. so tonight I want to cry. I don't cry anymore. I'm so tired of this life. I've been alright for months now, But I don't know if I can keep it up, for much longer now. So here I am, So alone in this life. And there's nothing in the world, Anyone can do for me. I hate this so much. This feeling of being unloved. This feeling of being a failure. So the tears fall down from my eyes, Like rain pouring down. Soaking my face. my eyes have turned inked red now. Agree? if you think you are a pimp chances are you're not. if you think that you are so big and bad chances are, people I really laughing at you behind your back. I suppose some people never learn their lessons though. But they pay for it in the end. Don't hurt people who care about you, It might just be the one thing in your life that stays stable. If you are mean to those who have done nothing to you, Or mean to anyone for that matter you get it worse in the end. You might think oh nothing will ever happen bad to me, That's where your wrong. If you cheat on loved ones you'll be cheated on. If you hurt loved ones they'll hurt you one day. One day you'll find that one person you can't live without, You'll find out that it was all just one big lie. It'll hurt but in the end they'll have the last laugh. Or the other person who you hurt will. Because you hurt them and then karma got you back. No need to fight it karma always gets you in the end. Be a kind,nice giving, and generous person. The world will be a better place but it starts with you. Spread a little joy suck in and hold on to the meanness, That is dished back at you pretend that it's nothing. Be there for those who have no one. Be friend the friendless. What do you do? so what do you do, when the world's colors have faded to gray? what do you do when your world caves in. how do you react when, nothing ever goes your way. when everyone around turns their back on you, what do you do? when it feels like the sun, won't rise tomorrow, what do you do? sit and cry the day away. just to watch the red blood, flow. How Can I Live if I'm not suppose to be with you, why is my heart telling me that I am. Is this just all an illusion. Will I wake up one day and, Find out everything I lived was a lie. Will I be torn in two. Just like you. How will I be able to live, If you're not in my life. I can't imagine even one day, Of not being able to see you. Not being able to stare at you. But what hurts the most is, That you never seemed to want to get to close. I want to know everything about you. I want to know all your life's story. I don't want to miss one thing. I don't want to close my eyes. If I got to sleep next to you. I'm probably watch you all night long. I'd be wondering if it'd be, Like this with us forever. How can I live life like this, Forever and ever. I want to make it last. I want you to be mine and only mine. I Cry I cry in the rain so no one can tell. so when I lift my head, they only think it's, the rain on my face. unless they look. look deep into my eyes, and reach into my soul. not many can though. I'm a pretty hidden person. I can act as happy, As can be w/out really being it. It drives me crazy it drives me crazy that he doesn't even glance at me. it drives me crazy that to where for him, would be like waiting for rain, in the middle of a drought. pointless and useless. i hate how he makes me feel so horrible. but I love how when I'm with him, he makes me feel like I'm, on top of the world. but w/out him I feel as if I'm nothing. I suppose I am better off on my own. but it just hurts so much. and then to see my friend, with her boyfriend, getting to joke and play around with him. and it drives me more crazy, because it hurts to not have someone, to get to do that with. it drives me crazy that he doesn't feel the same. I don't Think and I don't think he knows just how much it hurts me to have to let him go.but I know if I continue down this path I'll end up right back where I started at and that'd be worse then before.he doesn't own my heart he is my heart.I'd die for him.sadly I can't say he do the same.and he probably doesn't know who I'm talking about ither.and I don't think he knows how much it breaks me to pieces everyday just to have to face him.Not to be close beside him pulled into his warmth.It drives me nuts not to be his but I can't show that to him.It'd be weakness in his eyes.

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About Me: I am simply me I do not aim to impress people.I find it pointless to do what others do.I go against everything that everyone else goes to.I hate people who think money is everything and find them quite arrogant and rather stupid.If you have never loved you have never really lived.I love philosophy and I love to write poetry.Although I am still quite young you'd be surprised how mature I am.I hate when people downsize because of your age and I tend to even do it myself.But I try my best not to although even the kids my age are so immature and ignorant at times it's rather annoying and they give other kids my age a bad name.My boyfriend is my life and my everything.If You asked me to choose between my boyfriend and my friends I'd say I'm sorry to my friends because I'd be picking him.No matter what he's really the only friend I'd ever need to live as hard as that is to believe although it's nice having other friends to and I know he'd never give up his friends but I do know he'd choose me over his friends.

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