Ellis called me just now, why Iam unsure. We have nothing� to discuss or share. I prefer not to be in his company. I conveyed how I felt about him neglecting me, of course he was nonchalant. It's whatever, NEXT! I� have moved on...� the him I used to refer to is calling me from a state facility, with many apolgogies. He also wrote me a letter. However Iam not interested. Considering the torment he put me through I� have nothing left to say to him. For some time I was� bruised as well as wounded due to his speedy exodus. I forgave him, yet I wonder why I cry privately. He claims to want to reconcile, however I doubt it is feasible. I dont trust him and in the crevices of my mind� hestitation still� exist.
I've given him to much air time, I had left my home for 2 months, stayed with my mom briefly due to some stressful situations. I met someone� during this time other than Ellis, he appears harmless. Dont know much about him other than he is a Bishop also single parent. Seems ok, not really looking forward to a relationship with him or anyone @ this point. I need a hiatus right now, dont mind friendship but anything beyond this� will bring on issues. I have to be forthright with myself he is handsome, militant and an ok kisser lol.
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