Today is a new day, anxiously waiting for the future will bring us. Not much is going on today same ol same ol. That may sound like nothing but it is alot, being a single eparent is the hardest job I have ever had. Whenever he asks what Iam doing I always respond either same ol' or nothing really. I just dont want to bore him with the details of my monotonous existence.� Although he says me talking about me is exciting� I dont think he wants details. Perhaps he believes Iam home doing nothing, oh well� let him draw any conclusions he chooses. Most days are spent cleaning, making phone calls setting / rescheduling appointment, talking to teachers, figuring out what will be for dinner, laundry (lots of it), paying bills figuring out� how to� not get in�a slump, cooking dinner, grocery shopping, making snacks.� Doing x.e's hair or getting her more stuff for her hair like beads, pony tails, searching the internet for better hair product and new styles, scrubbing walls, re arranging her room, trying to decipher how to get more hours out of my already hetic day. I spend very little time on myself, my life seems to consist of taking care of other people and their need usually take priority over mine.
Huh just recalling all things my day consist of makes me tired! Back to "him" we had a disagreement recently, he assumed I wasnt enthused about marrying him. This isnt true, I dont approach the subject because he always blows me off. Iam nervously excited� about spending the rest of my life with him. In some instances he is very infantile, I told him my friend was was paying me a visit.� I also told him during this time I prefer not to be touched. He concured then asked if he could sleep on the couch like I have the fuckin plauge. Having your period is not contagious, he is so damn ignorant! I just wanted to say grow the fuck up will ya!� He distanced himself from me yesterday, he seems to� think all women react the same way. I dont have mood swings during this time, I dont bleed for days on end, I dont� have pms at all with the exclusion of Putting up with Men Shit!
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