Ok talked to "him" for awhile on and off today. My mind began driftin into dangerous waters, could've drown myself in the freaky thoughts going on n my head. We are getting more frank about our feelings for each other. Especially him, he told me last night that he wanted to make love me, then during our texting he revealed intimate fantasies about us, in addition to the fact that he has a romantic side. Never would have guessed it, thought he was too jesus/holy� also too rigid. Oh how wrong� I was was:)
�I had to abruptly shut the computer down..I want him so bad it disturbs my sleep. Last night without prompting he stated he wanted to make love to me, also that 75% of a relationship is sexual. Not a problem for me, at all. Yesterday was the first time he ever revealed any sexual attraction towards me, shocked yes! He is unpredictable which is quite refreshing!
Occasionally I question whether Iam deserving or enough for him. He is cognizant of this insecurity I possess, however I dont� make it obvious or anything.� I cant wait to start our/ my life with him. He has real expectations as do I. There is no such� thing as an ideal relationship, yet I would like to get as close as possible.
Its almost time for the kids to go to bed, cant wait for some peace and quiet. Or chatting on the phone with him, snoring but trying to convince me otherwise.
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