Ivan came by today, has been more recent. Why I dont know? All he talks about is himself and all the women who claim to love him, he doesnt even love himself. That is the shit that trips me out. He is� so fucking childish, he has a wii and acts like he aint never had shit in life. Wow is all I can say! I dumped daymon and walt called claiming I was playing on his phone but I wasnt. I have nothing but expletives for both of them wasting my time. Iam sure they will move on to the next chic. who will be gully. Why did either of them think that I am easy or naiive. They both want something for nothing. Especially walt who told me on several occasions he couldnt help me, yet he wanted to help himself to me. And Ivan really thought I was going to kiss his germy nasty ass in the mouth. He must be fucking looney , he told me he be tricking at the hotel with guttter slime for money. I aint hating on a brotha getting paper but I aint putting my lips on that shit. He told me he loves me, I dont care, he says Iam a good listener. Not so, he just loves to hear himself so I remain silent and let him babble on about his meaningful existence.� I went to the store and bought him a sub cool np I told him I had to be back� at� a certain time, he just kept bullshiting/show boating so I bounced walked home. When I came home he was waiting for me. I didnt care that he feigned concern. Big Fucking deal.
How is it that he claims to love me and treat our son like shit, how does that work? Explain it to me cause I just dont understand! I shouldnt have to tell� him David has needs, it should be so damn obvious.� Ivan has to grow up stop manipulating, lying thieving, misrepresenting,� hell morph into some one who is socially acceptable. His whole life is a game/ a joke! 42 years old and nothing to show for. Straight pitiful, he keeps doing the same shit, different women but the same dumb shit. When will he� ever stand up and be a fucking man, if not for him then at least for David.
I'm about to mess DJ up he plays stupid but his ass can hear what I told him to do. My energy is low, patience has headed south and Iam bout to beat him down like he owes me some money. Come to think of it he does! Cant have shit� he is destructive, jacked up my computer for almost a week. Steals anything that� isnt nailed down and blatantly lies about:even when he gets caught.
Iam tired of everything living this filthy apartment, these damn kids I wish often I never had. Being poor depressed taken advantage being thought of as stupid. I simply want out of this pit I currently reside in. I wish there were people in my life that would befriend me without be invading my space/privacy� who werent judgemental, close minded� always trying to make me over. Do these type of people� really exist?� Will� I ever meet a mate who isnt trying to gain something from me or manipulate me or hurt me intentionally. Is this type of man reserved for a specific type of woman. What? I dont understand! I dont want to another man who has been hurt, isnt affectionate ,selfish, "not ready" full of shit, on the rebound or controlling. I cant be who Iam not that is what men who�seek me out dont understand Iam a noncomformist� perhaps a� bit malcontent.
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