Today's the day.
I've got to keep moving, there remains so much to do. Time keeps ahead of me, calling to me that I haven't done this or that.
Now and then I get that funny feeling in my stomach that makes me scared. I always get that feeling before a major event in my life. I worry so much about the 'what ifs' in life. I know this about me so that helps deal.
�Journaling over the years has helped me tremdously, I've seen my fears chase me down time and time again, usually I find that I'm running from nothing, and if there were any reality to the fears I can see that I'm able to rise above and survive them.
I've gotten through alot and I'll get through this too.
I'm making it sound horrible but it isn't! I just react to things in this way. I hear myself thinking, "I wish this were over", how stupid, wishing my life away like that. I want to enjoy the milestones of my life, I want to be in the moment, embrace the changes as they come.
I'm still that scared little girl, she never knew what to expect. She needed someone to tell her "Everything's going to be alright" but�she never had that. I try to give myself that now. I'm here to help her, I feel the scaries and I see her start to hide, start to freak out even. I then have to put on my grown-up hat and gently coax her along to the next thing till she see's there is nothing to be afraid of.
I don't take all the credit though, I lean on Bear. He is my rock, I can always count on him. He's got the "Yes I can!" attitude and he's usually right. We talked about the "To Do" list last night and broke it down to the daily chores. It still appears that there will be a mountain to climb on Saturday but we'll get there.
This day�will be as nice as it can be. I�hope my daughter�will remember it fondly. I�hope our guests come away feeling the love in our family for our daughter and the woman she will be sharing her life with.
Everything's going to be alright.
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