Well to start things off on a good note, things are beginning to improve. At least in my personal life. Job still sucks but thats another story. I've met someone. My best friend and roommate introduced me to her friend Kyle at a party this last weekend. I've met him before but this was the first time that I actually talked to him or anything. He recently broke up with his girlfriend and a coulpe weeks ago, Danielle (my roommate) said that he was asking about me. He makes me laugh...all the time. Which is great cuz to me that is the most important thing. He's not my typical type ( I tend to like the "bad boys") but I've started to realize that my type really isn't working out in my favor so maybe it's time to try something new. There is only one problem. Of course there has to be at least one, nothing ever comes without strings attatched for me. Problem is, he's VERY VERY busy. He works two full time job and goes to school full time. I know it's a good thing, that he's so driven and has a plan for his life but it just kind of sucks that if things were to go the way I want them to, I still wouldn't be able to see him much. He also lives a little ways away. I mean it's not that far, like 40 min, but when he's so busy and even though I don't have near as much going as he does, I'm still busy as well. I don't know, I'm just REALLY trying to be patient and see how things go. I dwell on things way too much and am trying so hard not to stress about this too much and end up ruining a possibly good thing. Anyone who has any advice about how I can be more patient and not stress on this so much, I'm always open for suggestions.
I am new to this online journaling but have been going through a rut lately and thought maybe getting some things off my chest may help pull me out of it. Basically, life just sucks right now. Feels like my love life is a joke, I'm stuck in a dead end job, and because of that dead end job I live pretty broke. It just seems that with every day that goes by, I have something else to add to that list. Its always something. I have, however, come up with a plan that I think will help get things back on track. I currently have a lease at my apartment which is up in November. After my lease is up, my roommate and I have talked about moving away (really not that far away, about an hour from where I live now) and I really think that it would be a good thing because my sister lives there and has said that she could help me get a job where she works (where I'd be making significantly more money than I currently do) and would also help us find a house or something to rent. I just think that I need to get far enough away so that I can meet a whole new crowd of people and distance myself from a certain few who, against my better judgement, I still associate with. I wish I really could just run away somewhere though, I think it would be great to live somewhere that nobody knew me or anything about me...but I'll just keep dreaming.
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