Cumber's Journal

Sep 2006
4:22 AM PST

Ok so just a few days ago my boyfriend of three and a half years decides that he doesn't knows what he wants anymore....devastated i called my good friend alicia and told her what happened. she tells me that i can't be in that kind of relationship and to try and end it or something. so the next time my boyfriend and i talked he had said that he just doesn't see the diffrence between us being friends versus us being a couple....that was pretty much a slap in the face to me. so i said that we weren't a couple any more and ended it saturday night. it was so hard for me to start telling people the bad news...none of my friends knew highschool without jared and i being a couple. it was really devasting to alot of different people. my mom didn't find out until sunday night....even then i couldn't tell her face to face, i texted her and told her what had happened. everyone that i told got the goosebumps. no one even saw it coming. it was hard-hitting news. my own brother didn't even believe me at first. but once he finally believed me he was behind me 100%. all of my friends have really. my cousin, when my sister told her, started to cry. everyone was hurt, not just me. that following monday at school was really awquard. he wasn't even acting like any thing happened that weekend. he still expects us to be really good friends and hang out and stuff,and i would LOVE to, but he doesn't understand how hard it is for me to retain myself from hugging him or kissing him. i love him so much. i just dont understand. so im trying not to talk to him or hang out with him, you know? just give him some space for right now, but its hard because he is everywhere

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Username: Cumber

Gender / Age: Female, 35

Location: USA