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Jan 2007
2:20 PM EDT

everyday i question myself bout wat i wanna be wen i grow up . since i was little i had alwayz wanted 2 be a model but telling my mom is wrost than wat i want for me ,my family iks christian and i'm very much of a christian myself and it kills me to kno that someone like my mother is gonna try to stand in my way of being wat i wanna be, i kno that being a model has to do with showing some parts of ur body but i still question myself if its very wrong for a child of god to do such things as modeling . first wen i was little wen me my family and my cuzins would watch the miss world pagents on tv because i was very skinny and tall for my age even though i'm still i'm they always saw me do my little walk like models do act like they're the audeince and everything but now that i have made up my mind for what i wanna be now my family turn back on me (mom) it feels bad but it makes her feel better wen i say i wanna be a docter also another choice of what i want to be wen i grow up its like having two jobs. but being christian also helped me believe that with god all things are possibly and to make ur dreams come true sometimes u have to break some rules so basicly i have to depend on god to help me get thei r and also help myself . yesterday after watching shes the man it helped me relalize how much i missed playing soccer wen i was in nigeria becuz ova their it weren't bout football or basketball but soccer which ova their they call it football i saw how much i missed playing soccer as a kid and i wanted to do it now that i'm in high skool becuz i feel dat i'm athletic but i don't sho it much so now i wanna play sports next year as a sophmore more than anything else

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Username: 1flava

Gender / Age: Female, 33

Location: USA - Texas