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03
Jan 2007
10:26 PM EDT
   

I am a young woman now. WHy do i still feel like a child at almost 20? I need to grow up but i don't know how. I need to stop gripping so tightly to things that will do me no good but i have a heart that feels too much. i can't let go of anything. especially the past to the point i have no care for the present which in turn screws me over for the future. i have so many problems which i should deal with through myself because after years of being on meds and being dubbed 'depressed' i have learned and accomplished nothing. a pill can't help me. a pill, or many pills, haven't really helped anyone i know that had a problem. friends and family included. the fact remains that we're given all of this shi t so we don't have to feel what we express as reality. so we can mind numb ourselves. so we can have our thoughts silences. so we can sit there like dummies and not have to think about the things that matter most to us. a pill can't save me. only i can save me. i can only get better by making myself better.
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  • Username: uns3ttl3d
  • Gender / Age: Female, 37
  • Location: USA - New York
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    UNS3TTL3D's Interests:

    About Me: scatter-brained, spacey, lost, pig. i try my best to postpone the inevitable and time has ultimately expired.

    Interests: anything and everything

    Favorite Music: cat power, rage against the machine, radiohead, porcupine tree, sonic youth, modest mouse, the pixies, the cinematics

    Favorite Movies: lost in translation, edward scissorhands, requieem for a dream, pans labyrinth, the pursuit of happiness, thelma and louis, benny and joon, whats eating gilbert grape, lorenzos oil, pi, eternal sunshine, stigmata, what dreams may come, gia, juno, little miss sunshine.

    Favorite Television: heroes

    Favorite Books: i spy and wheres waldo, because i dont really read.

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