First,
real quick, my tooth! It has been a long two weeks, in and out of the dentist office, on anitbiotics, still my tooth bothered me and hurt and got pretty damn bad, so finally I got a root canal today! I was so afraid of the root canal but so far so good, I think it probably helped but we'll see. I also got my permenant crown and so I don't have to go back the 21st!
Now, CN,,, I guess I don't really know where we stand. I have been SO extremely mean to him at times! I don't know why. I know my tooth hurting has been a Bitchyness factor but still the poor guy doesn't deserve it! My moods have been so up and down. Sometimes I think I need to get back on the A-D but I really don't want to! AGH! I don't know what to think anymore! I am going crazy with the boys, they are so naughty most days and I lose my patience with them and my anger gets the best of me. I think sometimes they deserve a good spanking but not all the yelling and me losing my temper and smacking them. I think Cory sees how I have been reacting and doesn't want to commit to "THIS!" and surely doesn't want to bring a baby into this mess! (Believe it or not, I have actually been thinking of a baby-- girl!---) and he hasn't been lovey to me or told me I am beautiful and doesn't talk to me hardly at all. I'm not sure what is going on with us. I do think I am starting to get stressed thinking about selling my house and moving and possibly giving up my job to be with someone who doesn't (right now) at like he even loves me! HUM!
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