redshotlizard's Journal

Nov 2006
7:43 AM HNT

"Let all be said in the game of love and departure." It's a quote I made up that is very true to me. I am happy to say that YES I broke up w/ my boyfriend and I am moving on. I am very sorry to say that I didn't do it in the very most polite way but hey it happens. I think I was being selfish because my feelings were hurting because I knew that I wasn't treating him fairly. I haven't been true to myself and I have been trying to escape my true feelings. I thought I loved him but that love didn't last long. I was w/ him for 1 month and 1 week. I hope I didn't hurt his feelings because I hope we are still friends. I hope he won't hurt himself over me because I am not worth the pain. There are so many things to be said here. My life has changed and I have gone through a lot since this year has begun. But the new guy that I am w/ has changed me in a way that I would never have imagined. He makes me happy and I am finally smiling these days and people tell me that i look happier w/ him. I feel happy around him all the time. He is very special to me. This guy has helped me open up to people and I would have never thought that was possible for me to do. But I found out something great that I helped him do too. He opened up to me and got some things out of his chest that were killing him as he bottled up his thoughts, emotions, and things that meant the most to him. I have never liked someone as much as I like him. Dear God, bless our relationship and help us to last. He makes me feel beautiful and I feel wonderful around him. I can be myself when I am with him and he thinks that I am great. He is himself around me too and I love that he won't change since we are together. We are who we are but we are together that's all. I love not only who he is but who I am when I am with him. Bless all u who are in a relationship. I hope you all are happy. Listen to your heart and make sure you don't change for the guy. Make sure you stay you and are comfortable. It's not worth going out with a guy that pressures you to do things, change for him, or sneak around. Be careful and make sure He doesn't make you get out of your comfort bubble. I have been through it and it is painful. It hurt me and stripped me bare of anything that mattered to me most. I wasn't happy and I wasn't feeling loved. Even though I was with Him I felt regected and used. Don't make the same mistake I made because it will haunt you forever. A guy is not worth the pai because you are important and nobody can tell you otherwize. ~Elizabeth

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About Me: I love to read and write. I love to sing and I love to run. I love someone and hope to eventually get him to love me 2. I love you :)