redshotlizard's Journal

Jan 2007
3:07 PM HNT

Well, I got depressed and my family turned their backs on me. I felt like the darkness was comming into my world and I got scared. I want everyone to know that there are temptations out there in the WORLD. Sometimes u have to go through tough times, to understand things clearly. But if U turn to GOD than ur life will be so much easier than it ever could be without him. God helped me understand life and has brought me so much more closer to him. U have to learn that you can't change ppl and learn that the darkness can not be in your world. If u get wrapped up in evil things than u become evil yourself. If u just let urself be in the light than GOD will bless u with happiness. Most people that turn to God are happy, but they do not fit in with this world. Only darkness fits in with this world because this world wants you to be like them. If you turn to the evil side than you will have a hard time getting out. I learned that the past wrong doings that you got into can not be dwelled on. My first boyfriend hurt me and he had no idea. I can't hang out with him because he is not a good role model for me. I just can't get involved with people that hurt themselves because I don't want that life. I want the life of the wise, the christian, and the ones that don't cause drama. If I am with them than I will be safe. This world is getting much more sinful and all I am able to do is change myself for the better. I guess that it just wasn't my calling from God: to change other people. I needed to let God help me and I didn't and for that I regret it. I just wanted to have somebody love me and it wasn't working. I don't regret some of the things that I said to my second boyfriend because it was the truth. I only spoke the truth and I only tried and couldn't help the fact that I was looking for the good side. God up in heaven is a forgiving GOD. He will forgive you when you ask him to, when u repent. But that calls for a price: You have to act the way he says when u r on earth or else u will fall. God loves his children and he loves you all. It is hard to understand at first and it may take a while sometimes. But it is never too late to talk to God about your problems and try to make them better. But act b4 it gets late because you never know when you are going to die. You never know what will happen to you later on in life. Make the right decisions now! God loves you!! He loved me, because I was depressed and I got over it with HIS help. I changed for the good and I am going to stay this way. People may hate me...but hey not everybody loves everyone.

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About Me: I love to read and write. I love to sing and I love to run. I love someone and hope to eventually get him to love me 2. I love you :)