madhousewife's Journal

 
    
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Dec 2006
4:59 AM EDT
   

To be honest I can't think of three good things right now. I am trying this to help myself change and analyze things in my own life. I want 2007 to be a stellar year in my life. I have heard keeping a journal can help so wanted to try. My problem was not wanting a paper trail my family could read. They want to fix me or take my feelings and turn them into something about them. I suffer from depression, anxiety and low self-esteem and like all others I just want to be happy. In some ways I had a miserable childhood because of painful shyness, and constant critizism from Mom. I lost my youth in a too early marriage and motherhood. Don't get me wrong, my kids are my heart I just wish I had been older because being so young I wasn't prepared. I let them down in a lot of was because of my age. I didn't always like my kids, their friends, or choices, but I did always love and support them. My goal was to not be like my own Mother. Anyway ..I am hoping to work on myself and stop trying to rely on thers for my own happiness.
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  • Gender / Age: Female, 68
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    About Me: 50 year old Grandma, trying to figure out my own life and identity.

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