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12
Dec 2006
4:52 PM MDT
   

SO here is the scoop. Guess what gang..I have issues. Not much of a surprise I am sure. For the first time in my life I am on the complete and straight and narrow path. I figure if I do this then God will let me have the family and happiness that I have longed for. Tried to go there before but you need a willing and giving partner to travel that road along with you. I now have that. Dave is amazing. Everything I have ever wanted, longed for and prayed for I have at this moment. Money? Yeah not so much, but never had it to begin with so why want it now. I am happy. This is my issue(one of my issues)I have problems, and the sad thing is they are jealousy issues. I am aware that when you have kids and get divorced that you must talk, you must communicate. My problem is that in the past, Dave would call just to find out what she was doing, where she was, just needing to know all. Now he calls to talk about the kids and check on them and I still am feeling like he NEEDS to talk to her everyday. Its heartwrenching. I dont know how to move on from this feeling. I dont know how to trust in that. I feel stupid, I feel little. I feel like I must compete with someone who treats him like dirt every single day. I know deep in my heart I dont have to, but on the surface it stings.
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  • Username: llarson
  • Gender / Age: Female, 58
  • Location: USA - Arizona
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    About Me: Hmm..what to tell about myself. 39 yrs old, soon to be 40 (yikes). I am a mother and a better half to my amazing man.

    Interests: Love being with my family, clubbing with my friends (minus the drama that comes along with that),laughing and just enjoying everything life has to offer.

    Favorite Music: I am a huge fan of everything from Elvis to Dropkick Murphys, I have been told that I add a soundtrack to everyday of my life....sooo true.

    Favorite Movies: Boondock Saints, Anchorman, Braveheart, The Benchwarmers, I love anything funny or that has a great story. Not a big chick flick kinda girl.

    Favorite Television: Dont watch tv so much, when I do its usually Football, Southpark, Family Guy, anything that keeps my mind off the horrors that go on outside my front door.

    Favorite Books: Anything Stephen King, Dean Koontz.