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Jul 2010
3:56 PM CDT

Friends, cheerleading, and therapist visit number 2

Okay so today I had my therapist visit and I actually did really well with the biofeedback. It was my first time. Basically he puts this thing on my finger and it checks my pulse and it maps my heartrate on his computer. I'm learning how to control the way my heartbeats because that can benefit me when it comes to stress. I had my first try at it today and I did really well. It's actually pretty easy but I don't think i can do it without the machine stuff just yet.�

Also the main highlight of my day is I started talking to my friends again! Which is really good news and they are so sweet especially now that they found out that I had surgery. I am really happy about it. Alot of them are cheerleaders and they miss me. & it makes me happy. Idk for some reason even though I have still had about four months to let it sink in.. it still feels like i'm still a cheerleader even though I'm not. I just can't shake the feeling off that I'm not going to be happy when the first pep rally comes up. One good thing is that all the cheerleaders still treat me like them and they know I would give anything to be there if I wasn't sick. :/�

& my other friend mary kathryn said we should join lots of clubs this year because she knows how much im going to miss cheerleading. Isn't that just the sweetest thing?�

I think things are finally starting to turn around for me. Plus I have my gallbladder surgery coming up .. which i don't think it's finally hit me that I'm actually having surgery.. considering I almost cry everytime a needle comes into view.

For some reason I've been on this kick to go get a book from a bookstore. Idk why though. �But I really want a romantic book by Lori Wick.. all her books are amazing.

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Gender / Age: Female, 31

Location: USA - Florida